Sweet Catastrophe

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the shit hit the fan. i emailed brit’s mom telling her i was thinking about moving, and why, and before i got the chance to tell brittany, i guess her mom told her for me. she was gone when i got up this morning. we’ve exchanged a few emails, nothing has gotten hostile yet. she’s home now and her door is open but i’m sure she’s probably not speaking to me. i talked to my mom and they’re gonna take my swing until i’m living somewhere i can get it back and they’ve got a trailer so i won’t have any problem moving. i still don’t know for sure when i’ll be moving, at the moment i’m planning on christmas break. as long as things don’t get too stressful around here, i think i’ll stick to that so brit’ll have some time to find new roommates. i’m just trying to be as mature about this as possible. hooray for stress though. i actually don’t mind that her mother got to her before i did. it saves me the stress of bringing it up. bringing up tough issues are where i have my problem. once it’s been brought up, i have no problem saying what needs to be said, no matter how harsh it may be.

lots of things going on/being discussed

• moving
• informing some people of some harsh decisions
• working on a cruise ship next summer
• losing my fucking eyesight
• finally being bitten by the “let’s hurry up and get the hell out of college” bug (aka motivation )
• jack’s mannequin next wednesday night
• trip with my love to atlanta in 2 1/2 weeks
• BIG tests on friday, monday, wednesday, and thursday

my head is swimming

oy…i’m so tired. i closed last night, couldn’t sleep, and at promptly 6:15 this morning (shortly after i finally hit a decent slumber) my alarm went off, reminding me i had a meeting at work. ugh. i got there at 6:50 and there wasn’t a single car in the parking lot so i freaked for a minute thinking i got something mixed up and either the meeting wasn’t today or that it wasn’t at the store. finally a few more cars pulled up. the meeting was useless. none of the zone managers showed up and only 2 of 5 head cashiers showed up and not even half the cashiers were there. without all the managers, gary couldn’t go into everything he had wanted to talk about. it was basically a total waste of sleep-time. so i came home and unsuccessfully tried to get a little more sleep. now i’m heading back to lowe’s to work till 8:30. then i’ll come home and do lot’s of french homework and read some dante! (boy that’ll lift my spirits…) i’m cranky and full of allergy fun. but my ankle feels a lot better today, so that’s a big plus. i just hope tonight goes smoothly. i’m too tired to deal with a crappy night.

i’m SO absolutely bored right now. i mean i’d rather be sitting here doing nothing than doing more homework or being at work, but wow i’m bored.

and i twisted/sprained/rolled my ankle yesterday. exactly what i did remains unknown but it hurts like a bitch and work is gonna make me cry tomorrow.

i’m gonna go finish my laundry now. maybe i’ll watch robin williams live on broadway….

oh yeah and i love this icon.

sonofabitch…you know those calss-action suits you hear about all the time? where all these people use a product, get really bad problems because of it and then they all sue together? well i just discovered there’s one against the contact lens solution i’ve been using for like a year at least. this shit has caused a fungal eye infection called Fusarium keratitis. it “may cause personal injury and vision loss severe enough to require corneal transplants in affected individuals. Fusarium keratitis requires up to three months of treatment and may cause corneal scarring and permanent blindness.”

now, let’s consider the fact that for the last few months, i’ve been complaining about my vision. i thought i just needed to get my prescription changed because the eye dr changed it a few months ago. i’ve been putting off doing anything because i’d have to pay for another visit and waste almost an entire $24 box of contact lenses because they won’t just exchange them. BELIEVE i’m now planning on going to the eye dr IMMEDIATELY on thursday (i’m in class allllll day wed)

i know, i know….i’m a bit of a hypochondriac at times, but really….CORNEAL TRANSPLANTS….i’m sorry….i don’t really want to risk having to have major eye surgery. i’m a bit freaked….

edit: i should probably mention it’s Bausch & Lomb ReNu MoistureLoc

i love that you, of all people, are giving me advice. i got this, thanks. how ’bout you take care of your own shit.

i think i got a cat hair in my eye. all the stuff around it is swollen.

and i’m probably not seeing ryan until sunday. thanks vsu theatre for stealing my boyfriend while i’m already sad.

i’ve also had a fever all day.
and i want my ipod back.
and i want to sleep but i can’t because my eye hurts.
and i don’t want to go to class tomorrow but i really, really need to.
and i think my kitty is depressed.
and would someone please go get me a glass of water?

the past week or so has been pretty sucky. i dunno, i guess work has me really stressed so i’m really on edge. i keep wanting to cry like at the drop of a hat. it’s crap. i don’t feel good and i’d kinda like to see my boyfriend for longer than 5 minutes to say “hi….goodnight” i dunno. i just feel really worn down.

i really had more to say before i started this. oh well.

oh yeah, and my ipod is gone. it’s been breaking. after a lot of phone calls, two really pissy trips to best buy and an entire saturday wasted on trying to get it to mess up again, it’s been sent off to apple. i swear to god if my ipod comes back without being fixed (which i’m under the impression is a good possibility) i’m gonna go off on someone….

yesterday was my first real day at work. yeah so i hate it a lot. someone called in so i was BY MYSELF from like 6-10. closing all alone when i’ve barely had any training. thaaanks. they actually kinda pissed me off ’cause they also expected me to do all the closing duties which consist of cleaning all the registers, emptying the trash, sweeping the front end, and straightening/refilling all the endcaps. all while running back and forth to my register to ring up customers with only a slight idea of what the hell i was even doing. let’s not even think of the back/foot/leg pain from working on concrete floors for 6 hours–and considering how long it’s been since i’ve done this much work, let’s just say it was terrible and leave it at that.

i’m not really sure what i’m gonna do. i know i’m gonna keep applying at other places but i don’t think they’ll be able to match my pay. it’s crazy because from what i’ve seen, they have really great customer service but they don’t give a damn about their employees.

anyhow, today i went to hollywood video and they had a buy 2 get 2 free deal going on so i bought Red Eye, Robots, The Corpse Bride, and Waiting. i also rented Imagine Me & You (highly recommend that–it was fantastic) and Just My Luck (it was about as good as i expected from lindsay lohan) and i’m currently watching What A Girl Wants on tv. hooray for unplanned girly movie day!

i was really tired but realized i had to get up and go to wal mart to pick up a prescription ’cause i’ll be at work all day tomorrow. so i threw on some clothes and decided to stop by books a million since i just got my financial aid excess check. i finally picked up chuck palahniuk’s Diary, and i also got The Ultimate (Adult Only) Joke Book after flipping through and seeing a few jokes that made my jaw drop. then i sped over to wal mart only to get to the pharmacy 3 minutes before they closed (can you say RUDE?) i didn’t realize they closed at 7 on saturdays–my bad. i saw my foundation, which is always expensive, buy one get one free so i grabbed that but i grabbed the wrong color so i’ll have to exchange it tomorrow. when i get out of work. i grabbed some cookie dough (thanks to alicia who made me need some) picked up some subway and here i am.