Sweet Catastrophe

so in order to put off memorizing the french poem, i did my biology homework that isn’t due until sunday. is that still procrastination? or is it just like….mixed up priorities or something?

last saturday we went to CJs to celebrate my 21st birthday =) it was pretty much a success. ryan and i headed up there a little after 10 and kevin showed up later and stuck around for a while. jamey from work came by and bought me a drink and then we finished out the night with catie, levi and their friend ryan h. i really do wish a lot more people would’ve taken a few minutes to stop by, but c’est la vie. pictures are here and the video catie put together can still be found on youtube.

on sunday ryan took me to ruby tuesday and we rented the lake house. he got me a cookie cake and a foot spa! i’m in love with that foot spa.

oy so there’s like….way too much going on right now. here’s a peek at what i already know is on my schedule for the next few weeks.

Friday 1st: French oral exam, class till 2, work 3-10
Saturday 2nd: Work 12-5, start packing
Sunday 3rd: Work 8-5
Monday 4th: Last day of class, work 5-10
Tuesday 5th: MOVING!!! work 4-10
Wednesday 6th: Finish moving…hopefully
Thursday 7th: Work 4-10, Study, study, STUDY
Friday 8th: 8-10 Bio Final, 12:30-2:30 French Final, 2:45-4:45 Engl Final
Sat & Sun: Work, don’t remember what time
Monday 11th: Pre-Op bloodwork etc….
Tuesday: work–either 7-4 or 8-5
Wednesday 13th: 7am Surgery
Sometime between my surgery and when I go back to work I have to go with ryan to pick up Duke (his dog) from his mom’s in atlanta. we’re taking care of him while his mom is in louisianna for christmas. i hope he and willow get along.

gah…it’s pretty much all stressing me out. i don’t know how the hell we’re cramming everything into ryan’s apt ’cause jonathan is being an ass and obviously isn’t giving up the master bedroom which is really pissing me off. we had decided not to open a storage thing ’cause ryan is convinced we can fit it all but i’m still gonna call around just to see if there’s a really cheap one.

i really have to go memorize this french poem now. i can’t memorize poems this long in english…wtf?

alright, i want like 20 shirts from here: http://www.noisebot.com/index.html

everyone say happy birthday, merry christmas, happy…december, whatever, by donating to my paypal account. toosweet2b_4gotten@hotmail.com

it’s my 21st birthday! yay! last night we went out to CJs for pool. i’m waiting on catie to send me pictures, but she’s already uploaded a short video! watch it here

where to begin? hmm. okay, wednesday night– so basically for my wednesday night class we read a story with some questionable content including homosexual couplings. let it be known that two weeks before this was assigned we discussed it and decided as a class whether or not we’d read it. i can’t speak for the other class, but in our class, not a single person expressed any concerns against it. well, upon arriving to class on wednesday night we find out that a student spoke out against it. they didn’t even have the courtesy to go to dr. hess, they went above her and complained about it. she said that in the past, she’d have fought it, but she’s literally a step away from tenure now and it just wasn’t worth it. i completely agreed as did the rest of the class. you really have to pick your battles in life and that definitely wasn’t one worth fighting. i was FURIOUS though. not only was i excited to talk about the story and i had questions i wanted answered, but damn, how old are we? are we not mature enough at this age to take a piece of literature as is and not take such a huge offense and try to make it into an issue? i really couldn’t believe it!

i’m sure it didn’t help that 3 weeks ago i started a new pill and 2 weeks ago i started pmsing…and still am! i’ve had two completely clear days in the middle of it all but that’s it. everything hurts. everything upsets me. everything is RAR! lol. of course part of me hopes that i’ll be spared this week when it really is time, but the other part of me knows that would just mean i’d still be way off schedule and who wants that?

so on to the drama. bills were due on the 6th. on monday i asked brittany how much longer it’d be before she’d be giving me her part of the bills. she said she’d talk to her mom and let me know. end. so friday i get a text while i’m at work, and long story short, she let the power get off and then expected me to pay the reconnection fee. hell no. some minor drama ensued, but i was so beyond pissed i was physically shaking. it’s over though. she’s not getting the $30. i had a few things to say and that was the end of the argument. which i was very satisfied with. only then i left and went to ryan’s and everyone was gone off at a party but i didn’t want to go. so i sat and cried for a while. all this crap with brittany just brings to my attention how often people take advantage of me. and how there are so many people that’d i’d do anything in the world for but they only bother speaking to me when they need something. whether it be something big or just someone to bitch to. those that talk to me outside of that talk to me out of convenience. or so that’s how i feel. i feel like i’m just there. and that just really upsets me because i don’t understand what it is that makes me not good enough to just have as a friend. why don’t people like ME instead of what i provide for them. am i just completely devoid of desireable qualities? *sigh* and that’s really only about 40% pms talking because that’s something i wrestle with often enough. and while we’re on that subject, why is it that just when you start to feel like a valid person, someone says something that makes you feel like, when you’re not around, they must say and think terrible things about you? *doublesigh*

anyway, back on the roommate drama. i’ve discovered this twisted joy. i’m excited about moving out and one thing i’m most excited about is that almost everything in the kitchen is mine. she’s not gonna have anything when i leave, and that just feels like an inkling of justice to me. she’ll have silverware, but that’s about it. i’m sure that doesn’t say anything great about my character that i’m gonna get so much joy out of that, but whatever.

ryan’s coming home with me for thanksgiving i’m really excited about that. i dunno why though….lol. i’m definitely excited to see jesalyn! when i call momma when she’s babysitting her she puts her on the phone and when i talk to her she gets excited and then she tries to take the phone back.

my birthday is next sunday. the big 21st. i’m excited but then i’m not. mainly ’cause my birthday pretty much always sucks. i hate hyping myself up for it and then being so let down. it’s not even that i ever expect anything amazing. i just want a solid GOOD birthday this year. please&thankyou.

thanks to kristi for showing me this.

so basically this kid at UCLA was in the library late when they asked for his id. he didn’t have it with him, so they asked him to leave. he didn’t leave immediately so they went to get police officers, when they returned with the officers, the kid had already picked up his stuff and was heading toward the door. from my understanding of all this, it appears that even though he was leaving, an officer grabbed him to physically remove him from the premises, obviously the kid reacted because that was unnecessary as he was already leaving, so what do the officers do? they shoot him with a taser gun. and then when he can’t stand up after that, they shoot him again. and then twice more. this kid is shot 4 times.

you can read the article here: http://dailybruin.ucla.edu/news/articles.asp?id=38958

and then watch the video (from someone’s phone) here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AyvrqcxNIFs

the video comes in as the kid is already yelling at them to keep their hands off him. really, i’m appalled and i hope i just watched a video of a bunch of jackasses who lost their jobs and got sued for being dicks.

things i need to blog about later:

surgery woes
my major
cancelled english class tonight
pms

we just lost directv again. i believe that makes four months in a row that they’ve let it get shut off. anyone still wondering why i don’t want to live here anymore?

so right now i’m thinking i’ll just be x-posting on here and lj, minus friends only and group postings. i just can’t get a good feel for this one, but maybe that’ll change. i’m still waiting on feedback from payperpost on the whole situation, so this may not exactly be my new home, but i’m getting started just in case. i need to get this blog active as soon as possible.

hmm….having issues getting this set up the way i want.