Sweet Catastrophe

I watched as much Smallville as I could stand yesterday. I got to the point where I couldn’t sit downstairs alone anymore so I had to call Ryan to come home. He was set to pull a really long night to finish up two projects Joolie got them started on. They have to get the master bedroom finished before the bed they ordered comes in this weekend and they’ve got to rip some things out of one of the bathrooms before the plumber comes in on Saturday to do the stuff they can’t do themselves. They’ve got some weird little setup in there–the best way I know to explain it is sort of like those walk in bathtubs, only without the door? It’s just really weird.

Anyway, he dropped everything and came home and even stayed up with me till 5 this morning. He really stepped up to the plate last night and kept me laughing. We were both exhausted but he didn’t complain and acted wide awake until I finally said I thought I could go to sleep–then we both passed out pretty much immediately.

My chest is still really tight today, but I feel better. I’m hoping it doesn’t carry over into the weekend–I’ve got a full schedule and I just can’t afford to feel like this, something will finally give and it won’t be pretty.

I’m really anxious this week. I’m not positive what kicked it off, but it’s really been in high gear. I’ve started what would’ve been 4 extreme anxiety attacks this week and I just keep getting random surges.

I’m really feeling off. I know I’ve got a few valid reasons, huge assignments due for one, to feel a little anxious, but definitely not to this degree. It’s really only coming out in spurts too…I’m just not sure what’s manifesting it or what I can do other than wait it out…

So every year, the top scoring stores in our Customer Focused program have a drawing for a brand new car. Today they were there for our drawing and apparently, it was between me and L.A. and obviously I’m not writing an entry entitled, “Lamer =(” detailing my epic win…

I wish they hadn’t told me that I had made it into the final two. I didn’t even really care about it until I realized how close I was to it actually happening. No, I don’t need a new car, nor do I desire to own a brand new car–there tend to be too many kinks to work out in a new car, but it would’ve been really nice. I’ve been pushing grills, and lumber, and indoor lighting for two years now and it just would’ve been cool to have something nice to say about my job, finally! haha

L.A. doesn’t need a new car, and she’s one of those who creates her own schedule at work pretty much….I just wish I had lost to someone else. Coming so close, I realize it would’ve been the best timing with Ryan’s car dying. We could’ve sold the car and gotten him something more suited to him, something lightly used, and still had money left over to put on school loans.

I really do wish they hadn’t told me about it.

I’m still trudging through Smallville! I’m halfway through season 4 now. I could be further along but I slowed it down for a few reasons.

I’m so unhappy with the last story line that ended! **SPOILER WARNING** Alicia, the teleporting girl just got killed. Clark was so close to some decent happiness! I know she was crazy for a little stretch, but she really was better! I mean damn, she took a bullet just so Clark wouldn’t have to pull any hero moves that might’ve leaked his secret. I was so mad when she was gone.

I’ve come to the point where I don’t understand why the Kents haven’t hooked themselves up with some killer life insurance–they know they’re constantly in danger and every time something happens, they freak out because they might lose the farm. I mean hell, at this point they can still take advantage of their Luthor connections and really made sure they’re set if one of them dies.

I’m only half enjoying this story line with Lana’s witchy ancestor. I’m enjoying the changes it’s bringing out in Lana, but notsomuch everything else surrounding it.

I just hope everything pulls up and I don’t regret all the time I’ve put into getting the show…

Yeah I pretty much just realized I have 3 presentations due next week.

For General Studies, I need to re-write a few things from my previous papers on my areas of emphasis and just decide what all I want to say. That won’t be a big deal. If I get inspired, I’m gonna pull together some clips of Pam and/or Ryan from The Office since I’m focusing a lot on Administrative Assistants and Temp work. Thus far, no one else presenting has done anything really other than just standing and talking about what they want to do and this isn’t an assignment Mrs. Walden has ever done before so I’m not too worried about my grade.

For ACED, I’ve got to create a PowerPoint with some rigid time limits and list of strict guidelines. Our subject is a vacation spot. I only decided today what my subject would be and it’s due next Tuesday–oops! I’d thought about covering somewhere/something I’ve never experienced before, like Outer Banks, something like that, but then I realized I just went on an amazing Disney vacation so that’ll be really fresh in my mind! On this one I just need to make sure I give myself enough time to do it–I know I’ll get about halfway through it and get sick of putting it together; that’s what I always do when I have to put together a PowerPoint.

Finally, the one I’m worried about, I’ve got a group PowerPoint to do in Spanish class. We weren’t technically given a due date, but we all worked out that it’ll be next Friday. Unfortunately, my group hasn’t even met over it yet. Also, we have to write a one page paper for it, in Spanish, and the presentation has to be in Spanish as well. I know this is Spanish class, but it’s a cultural presentation, not language, and I’m not sure how we’re supposed to get our point across and have anyone in the class understand it other than the teacher. Obviously we’re going to have to employ words our fellow students haven’t encountered yet…We’ve decided we’re gonna make the PowerPoint in English and we’ll speak in Spanish. We don’t think she’s going to like it that much, but I think she’ll deal. It’s not like we’re gonna be alloted enough time to ‘teach’ the class the words as we’re trying to get through the presentation. I really hate when teachers don’t think assignments through.

Ryan had to take my car to Jacksonville today–his brakes were slipping. I didn’t have anything solid planned, but of course now that I can’t leave, I’m feeling motivated to go run errands….they’ll wait till Thursday though.

I’m a little stressed about a lot of different things this week. Some anxiety over this, that, and the other. After some discussion, there’s a slight possibility I might to to Milwaukee in July–there’s sort of a Lifeho reunion going on. I’m terrified of the actual trip, I have no idea why, well, besides the fact that I’d be taking my first flight. It’s out of my hands now though. If it all works out that I can go, then I’ll work through that anxiety and if I can’t go, well then we’ll start working on the webcam plan

I’m just ready for this week to be over….not that this week is so bad, but by the end of the week I’ll have at least one issue resolved and can figure out where I need to go from here/there. I’m strongly considering dragging Keri and Andrew over to the gym after class tonight to hit the treadmills or ellipticals and see if I can’t work off some of this stress. Besides, if I do end up going to Milwaukee this summer, I’d really like to shed a few pounds before I get there–seeing old friends and meeting new ones is always a more comfortable situation when you’re comfortable in your own skin, ya know?

I’m gonna go shower while OTH finishes downloading so Kristi and I can catch up.

So there’s been some concern around P-view about next semester’s possible occupants. Keri’s current roommate is….well she’s great, but she’s a harder partier than pretty much all of us combined. There had been talk of her having one of her friends move in over here, which would keep them both around a lot more—lot’s of possibilities for some less-than-desirable moments around here.

This weekend though, I found out that’s all been straightened! She’s moving out altogether and two theatre friends, Scroggs and Carl are moving in–both great guys. Of course that means more testosterone around, but I think I’m getting used to that. Having Scroggs around might be really good for Ryan too–they’re the kind of friends that are close when they’re around each other a lot but they easily get separated. I’m hoping maybe he’ll be the boost Ryan needs in motivation to finish out everything at VSU.

I’m sure we’ll have fun though. Scroggs is planning on bringing down his awesome grill from home so I’m supposed to be on the lookout for good deals on a grill cover. If I’m lucky, that means I’ll occasionally have someone around here cooking an awesome meal for me instead of the other way around! I really gotta stop feeding all these guys around here…

So I got sick earlier today…I have no idea why and I seem to be pretty much over it now for the most part.

Combine that sickness for the completely irrational anxiety when it comes to taking ‘long’ drives on my own and here I am at home instead of getting ready to watch Lifehouse perform in Jacksonville.

When I get insured again, I really think I wanna talk to a doctor about finding some anxiety meds I can take when I need/want to take trips like this. It’s really holding me back and I hate that! I wanna save up for a good gps system too since part of that anxiety is in regards to getting lost.

I went ebay-ing to make myself feel a little better. I found a lot of cute comforter sets but I talked myself out of them in favor for some cheaper impulse buys. I bought a few pairs of earrings for myself–dinosaurs, grenades, wrenches and pistols, all cute little studs and some little witches on broomsticks for my mom. I favorited the seller so I can go back and buy a bunch more. I think there were like 11 more pairs I really wanted to get. I love weird earrings.

Now I think I’m gonna study Spanish and just keep my mind off the concert I’m missing.

How long do you think it’ll be before we see the end of different drama surrounding the Harry Potter books?

Up this week: A trial to block the fan-created encyclopedia.

Steven Vander Ark, owner of one of the more popular fansites created the encyclopedia after being approached by a publisher who assured him there was no copyright infringement.

Really though, I believe Steven has taken one too many cruises to Fantasy Island if he thought his writings would see the light of day without any interference from Rowling, who we’ve all known for quite some time plans to release her own encyclopedia about the Potter world.

Honestly, I don’t think I’d want a fan-released encyclopedia. Inevitably it would alter whatever Rowling released herself, if she still released anything at all. I know it would contain mostly facts, just pulled straight from the stories, but it’ll also contain background information and I’d rather hear that straight from the source rather than educated guesses.

I don’t think we have to worry about it, though. If nothing else, I think they’ll try to make an example with this case because, as stated in the most recent article I’ve read on the matter, allowing this book through would eventually see the end of most fan works, since authors would be forced to take extra measures to protect their writings. What would the world be like without fanfic?! haha

So I don’t know what’s going on with my locker at work. It appears that someone wants my vest?

I use tsa locks, they have a little green indicator on them, and if your lock has been opened any other way than using the combination, it shows a red indicator. I use one similar to this one for my locker at Lowe’s.

I hadn’t been paying much attention to it until one day I noticed my indicator was red. So I looked the lock over and it certainly looked like it had been pried apart. Now, you can reset the indicator, but instead, I bought another lock in a different color hoping to deter whoever had been in it.

With the new one, it wasn’t long before I saw that it was red when I came into work one day. Now, I’m not ruling out the possibility of me doing something when I lock up that jarred it into thinking it had been busted open, but I’ve played with my old one and not been able to make the indicator turn red at all, so I really think someone’s trying to bust into my locker, but I don’t know why! Any time they’ve tried has been when I’m not at work so the only thing in there is my vest and copies of my availability and time off requests–there’s nothing valuable in my vest at all!

We don’t have cameras in the break room, so I’m not really sure what I should do. I haven’t rest the indicator again since the last time, but I think I should and just monitor it really closely and probably not bring my purse in for a while…I hate doing that though. I guess I’ll get a little clear bag to bring in my inhaler and keys and stuff like that so I don’t have to leave my wallet or anything in my locker…

But I mean hey, if someone wants my vest that badly, they’re more than welcome to it!