Sweet Catastrophe

I can’t stop reading long enough to update my blog :-P

So what’s going on with me? Well for one, I’m absolutely adoring the weather right now. I know I’m in the minority, really, but I absolutely love the stormy weather. I hate when it knocks out any of my electronics, and I hate driving in it while I’m in this loaner, but otherwise, gah I love it. I open the windows and just sit and read.

On a similar note, our store extended our hours back to 10pm again. We closed at 9 for less than a year. You’d think it wouldn’t be a big difference, but it really and truly is for our store since we get more contractors and general repairmen so after 7pm things really slack off. So it’s been hilarious to listen to management complain. They’ve done so much already to cut costs and here we are being counterproductive and adding an extra hour of full electricity, air conditioning, and staffing. Aside from the fact that we’re in a recession, all this rain is killing sales as well and they’re flipping because we’re not making our goals. Like last weekend for Memorial Day they had coverage as if it were Black Friday and yet they STILL wouldn’t send people home. Did they think we were suddenly going to get a run on patio furniture while it’s flooding outside?

I’m going to officially start looking for a car now. A lot of places are running deals right now so I’m going to look around and if I find The Car, we’re going to take the 5k we’ve got already and just use it as a down payment and then whenever I get paid for the personal injury portion I’ll make a big payment (or if I’m lucky, pay it off). I just can’t drive this loaner anymore. To be brief, there’s just too much about it that makes me anxious driving it, and I can’t take it much longer. It’s gotta go.

Really and truly not much else going on right now. I’m in a nice little span of boringness. I’m okay with that though, just means there’s not anything crazy going on.

I have a ton of music, and I honestly don’t listen to everything when I get it. I’ll find an artist I like and acquire their whole discography or a good chunk of it and it may be another year or so before I truly listen to it all. I just have to be in the right mood for something new. I like it though; this way I’m always discovering new favorites within my own collection.

“What Sarah Said” became one of those new favorites just a few days before Willow got sick. Talk about timing. Anyhow, it’s an absolutely beautiful song done in true Death Cab fashion with no-bullshit-lyrics. It’s just all laid out.

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And it came to me then
That every plan
Is a tiny prayer to Father Time
As I stared at my shoes
In the ICU
That reeked of piss and 409

And I rationed my breaths
As I said to myself
That I’d already taken too much today
As each descending peak
On the LCD
Took you a little farther away from me
Away from me…

Amongst the vending machines
And year-old magazines
In a place where we only say goodbye
It stung like a violent wind
That our memories depend
On a faulty camera in our minds

And I knew that you were a truth
I would rather lose
Than to have never lain beside at all
Then I looked around
At all the eyes on the ground
As the TV entertained itself

Cause there’s no comfort in the waiting room
Just nervous pacers bracing for bad news
And then the nurse comes round and everyone will lift their heads
But I’m thinking of what Sarah said
That love is watching someone die…

So who’s gonna watch you die? (3xs)

Welp, my monitor is officially dead. MY monitor. My preferred and default monitor of the two. The one that doesn’t have an annoying dead pixel in the middle of the screen *deep sigh*

I’m going with just a single monitor right now, but it’s proving to be annoying. Dual monitors is very much just a convenience, but gah, when you get used to something it’s so annoying to put up with less. I’m a serious multitasker so I generally have a video playing on my monitor off to the right and I just go about things in my default monitor. I’ve grown very accustomed to this! iTunes is getting a real workout right now since I can’t really watch anything and I can’t seem to just do one thing at a time.

Ryan is almost positive that the transformer is blown in the monitor and supposedly we should be able to find a replacement for like $30. That would be ideal, but otherwise, I’m going to have to shop around for a good one on sale. I need a good 17″ monitor to put next to this one. I just don’t know if I could handle them being different sizes. That’d look too awkward to me.

Of course I could handle getting a whole new dual monitor setup like this one in any size. It’d be nice to get rid of this monitor with the dead pixel altogether! I could kick Ryan for not just exchanging it. He said it didn’t bother him, but dammit, here we are and now it’s MY monitor and it does bother me :-P

Could be worse though, I guess. The power supply to my computer could’ve been blown altogether. I think that’s probably the only thing I dislike about this rain– the potential it has to cause harm to my electronic sources of entertainment.

That and trying to drive in that hunk of metal I’m still borrowing…

Normally, the calmed streets between semesters excites me. I love it when this town just sort of chills out for a few weeks, when I can actually get to work on time.

This year, though, it’s been a reminder of everyone who’s left in the last two weeks. Everyone I hang out with regularly is gone now. It’s odd, too, being neighbors it wasn’t just hanging out, they’re kind of a daily part of my life, ya know? Or were.

It’s going to be so weird to walk out my door and not run into any of them.

We had some damn good times in the last few days they were all here. Drunken Lego Star Wars certainly wins in my book.

I kidnapped some mementos from Apt 3. Andy Wood, I have your old wine glass– Jack Skellington belongs to me now :-P

Took some leftover junk too, tons of cleaning supplies, area rugs, chairs, JR’s old desktop, just random stuff. The Meeting St sign hangs over the door now… I don’t even know where that came from. And I forgot to ask about Ruben.

Another year down. Time for everything to change again.

I’m 23 years old. My relationship is absolutely fine. So WHY am I stuck in the middle of some ridiculous relationship drama worthy of 16 year-olds?!

So basically Will’s an idiot. I’ve told him this to his face; this is not news. He broke up with his girlfriend. Not wanting to deal with everyone on the outside gossiping before the situation was settled, I became her confidante in the matter. They got back together. Will is still playing games though, so he says one thing to her (and I’m witnessing these things) and tells others something completely different. Putting even more of a strain on the situation. For instance, Will is gone now for the summer. He asked Katie to take care of some things here that he didn’t get to before he left, such as grabbing dirty dishes from his room and going through stuff to find my missing dvds– okay, he tells someone else that it’s bothering him that she’s here going through his stuff. *stare*

For some reason, EVERYONE is talking to me about all this mess.

Of course, there’s more to it than I’ll talk about here because this isn’t my dirty laundry to be airing…but it really is all a huge mess and I’m sick of being stuck in the middle of it when it has nothing to do with me, but I’m compelled to continue being Katie’s outlet because I know she needs the support system right now; he’s putting her through a lot. And of course I can’t keep my mouth shut when people spout off these things that he’s said to them that I know are bull….I’m not going to just sit back and let him spin his own little versions of the truth for different people. He’s piled up this huge mess and he’s going to have to deal with it eventually. I’ve got his number, I know what’s up.

I never in my life would’ve believed there’s really that much difference in being 20/21 and 23 but it’s hard not to believe it when you see it on a daily basis…

It’s enough to really start bringing out the bitch in me and I don’t appreciate that, honestly.

I’ve actually been unusually busy for the past week– Ryan and I had a full date-day, we slept in went to see Paul Blart: Mall Cop at the dollar theater…it was okay, worth the dollar. Then we ate at Sonny’s and I laughed at the radio edit of Rehab’s Sittin’ at a Bar…radio edits crack me up. We ended the night at the regular theater to watch Knowing. It was good up until the end…to avoid spoilage I’ll just say they could’ve just left it at the final hug and I’d have been happy, but the final scene was just too much for me. I was annoyed to have sat through a film with that type of message without knowing ahead of time that that’s what I was getting into.

Work has been actually going well– my schedule has been good enough to keep me in shifts that keep me from watching the clock, and when I do have a shift like that, I’ve been working on sales training for a new girl who’s going to be working in my area.

I’ve hung out with a lot of other people as well, Scroggs and I have spent a decent amount of time chilling outside, Josh and I got in some Lego Star Wars time, Nick and I went out to eat Saturday after work and John and I chilled at Steak N Shake last night after work. Today, JR and I had a friend-day and ran errands and watched Step Brothers and W. I’ve already seen Step Brothers and recommend it, I don’t think I was in the right mood to watch W though.

Of course, I’m still behind on things I need to get done…when I haven’t been hanging out, I’ve been reading, voraciously. I just can’t stop.

A lot going on in my head too, but that’s for another post altogether!