Sweet Catastrophe

God I’ve been so busy. Let’s see, lots of work. Moving Jonathan out. Moving to a different room. King size bed! *woooo* Shopping for impossible to find crap, more work, ridiculous pains in my feet. Annoying people. That was all Sat, Sun, Mon…. Tuesday I got up and had an amazing lunch with Catie, then we went to the mall to run some errands for her and I picked up a Mario tshirt and some Victoria’s Secret perfume. Then I came home and hung a bunch of stuff on the walls and then had some fun next door with the Wii. I had plans for the evening, but I came home and well, I’ll just paste my convo about what happened to me:

Jade says:
like, i was next door playing wii
Jade says:
came home, went upstairs to do this and that before you got off work
Jade says:
and i was folding up the sheet sets that don’t fit our bed and boom, my vision went crazy
Jade says:
it’s like tunnel vision with spots in front of your eyes at the same time
Jade says:
so i lie down and ryan holds my had for a bit and the throbbing starts
Jade says:
he leaves
Jade says:
i semi-dozed for like 45 minutes
Jade says:
and i woke up and boom, i can’t feel my left arm from a little above the elbow all the way down
Jade says:
then the whole left side of my face, and entire nose went numb
Jade says:
and then my whole mouth did, like tongue and all
Jade says:
and then that’s when the anxiety started settling in ’cause i got so terrified…with the numbness everything feels swollen too
Jade says:
and so i got freaked about either not being able to breathe, or finally really falling asleep and swallowing my tongue
Jade says:
i can feel everything again, and i’m back down to just severe throbbing in my head
Jade says:
but the tunnel vision won’t go away
Jade says:
and neither will the anxiety
Jade says:
the first time i got this shit, i got the tunnel vision, and then my nose and the tips of my fingers went numb
Jade says:
then the migraine came and that was it
Jade says:
ever since then, it’s only been the tips of my fingers, and sometimes my nose going numb
kt says:
this is insane.
Jade says:
not tunnel vision
Jade says:
this is fucking extreme
Jade says:
oh! and i forgot
Jade says:
about 20 minutes ago, i got this overwhelming static noise just hitting both of my ears
Jade says:
and now that keeps coming and going
Jade says:
it’s like i’m overrun with white noise or something
i had to come downstairs….i’m so overrun with anxiety that i can’t be alone
and no one is home so i had to come get on the computer

Thus the majority of my Bleh…those are migraine symptoms ladies and gents. All these crazy symptoms, the vision loss and the numbness are called migraine aura. Something like 1 in 5 migraine sufferers experience them, and I’m one. I hate it. On the one hand, it’s a great warning that the migraine is coming so I can take meds asap and try to get situated in bed in a dark room before it really hits, but last night was way too extreme. The bout with feeling like I was not gonna be able to breathe basically brought on an extended anxiety attack, minus the ridiculously fast heartbeat. You can read more about migraine auras and what causes them here. It’s crazy stuff.

I didn’t want Ryan to come home because that would’ve made me emotional, and the last thing you need to do with a migraine is sob, so Catie came over and sat with me and gave me some ativan, and I calmed down a lot. By the time I went to bed, I still had a lot of anxiety, but I no longer felt like the world was about to end. Today I’m pretty much okay, though I don’t know if I’ll make it through work. I can still feel the pressure telling me the migraine pain isn’t totally gone and could flare up at any moment and I still feel like my vision isn’t totally right. I really hope none of you have to deal with migraine auras. Ugh…