Sweet Catastrophe

So I did a little shopping after work today. Nothing like trying on clothes to boost your self esteem….right. [Oh and wouldn't you know it, I gave myself permission to splurge and only ended up buying two little $3 items....]

I’m determined to lose some weight. I’ve never been one to gain, or lose–I’ve always maintained a weight that I wasn’t totally happy with, but I was satisfied.

Last year, though, my pills changed, and I gained a good 20lbs overall, and I’m not at all happy. For the first time, I gained weight in my face too. I think that’s my big issue, really. I don’t mind a little extra weight that much. I’m still pretty much healthy, but when I can see it in my face, it’s gotta go. Now.

And while it’s been nice having boobs, it’s time to say goodbye.

I’m going to the doctor later this week. I’m all for trying something like hydroxycut, or anything else, really, to speed along the process, but I can’t take most pills like that. They have a tendency to make you a little jittery and my asthma inhaler already does that, so any time I’ve ever tried anything, I’ve been in an unbearable state of madness. So I’m gonna talk to my doctor about switching to a pill a little less conducive to weight gain.

It’s a small step, but it’s one I think will make a significant difference. I know your metabolism changes as you get older and you’re more likely to gain weight and keep it, but I’m struggling to believe that 21 is that age for me. I’ve thought about it a lot and those pills seem to be the route of my problem.

I’ve already changed my diet. I’m definitely eating less. I’m hoping with a change in pills, and adding in some exercise I’ll feel like me again soon.

Hopefully I’ll be going to Louisiana this Christmas and I’ll be meeting all the rest of Ryan’s family. I don’t want them to see me as that chunky chick their Ryan is dating. I’m ready to be me again.

Mother nature basically hates me. I’m in pain, and my chin looks like a tiny mountain range…no amount of skin care products can save me at this point.

I’m moody. I hate being moody, I really do. I can always tell when I’m getting bitchy for no reason, but there’s just no ‘off’ switch! Gah!

The icing on the cake? This isn’t even my freaking week! It’s just SO rude to show up unannounced, and early. Bitch.

*sigh* And now I want cake. With lots of icing.

Edit: and I pretty much just got mad at the sun for going behind a cloud. mhmm.

Lifehouse:

11/10/07 - Talleyrand Festival - Jacksonville, FL
11/11/07 - Floyd’s Music Store - Tallahassee, FL

Jacksonville is 2 hours from me, and on a Saturday so I could rest on Sunday, but it’s a festival, so it’ll most likely be a shorter set, and definitely won’t be up to the same standards as the rest of the tour.
Tallahassee is about 2 hours away. It’s on Sunday so I’d have to drive home after the show and have a full day of everything on Monday. It’s a full show though…

Do I do Jacksonville or Tallahassee? Or do I do both? If I do both, do I drive home overnight or get a hotel? Driving back home only adds an extra hour total?

Or maybe they’ll add a Georgia date? But if they add a GA date, it’ll most likely be Atlanta, which is much further away and will probably be in the middle of the week.

Or maybe the guys were on crack when they came up with this system of releasing like 5 tour dates, and then adding one or two every few days. Maybe, just maybe, they need to get back to the nutritional supplements, cleanse their systems, auras, chis, what-the-hell-evers and stop tormenting the Southeast every time they plan a freaking tour! This is nuts!

They’ve been really pushing this tour. They’ve been blogging every night, talking about how excited they are. Teasing us with setlist prospects. Telling us how amazing the show is and how it’s so much bigger than the shows they’ve done in the past! Gahhh!

At the moment, I feel like I wanna do both of these Florida dates. I don’t know why I’m even considering that to be a valid, argumentative idea—of course I want to go to both!

Ideally, I’d like to have a concert buddy and go to Jax, spend the night and then go to Tallahassee. I don’t mind driving home between, but it’d be more of an all around fun weekend if I had someone with me. Alone, all the driving seems like more of a hassle.

Hmm…Ryan may be out of town on my Birthday. Maybe I could convince him to go to one or both with me. Ohh the gears are totally turning…I bet, if nothing else, Ryan could work on Saturday in Jax, get KEN to pay for a hotel Saturday night and I could just stay with him! Then he could either work Sunday, or we could caravan to Tallahassee! Either way, it makes the whole thing a little more interesting, and a little less of a hassle. Gears are totally turning now.

I’m gonna have to wait until I see what’s going on in Georgia before I figure this out. Jax tickets have been on sale forever, since the festival has been planned, but Tallahassee doesn’t go on sale until Friday. Where’s my sanity? ‘Cause it’s certainly not in concert trip planning!

So yesterday was my first day of work in two weeks. Of course, I had a full 1-10 shift, which is really not the best way to reintroduce your body to working on concrete. And for those who’ve never had to work on straight concrete, yes, after even as short a time as 3 days straight of not working, your body is basically being reintroduced to concrete. It’s just not something you ever get used to.

So I was already in for a stiff morning for that, but apparently last night both Ryan and Willow loved me a whole damn lot and couldn’t stand to be 3 inches away from me so I spent the whole night tossing and turning, in a spot not even wide enough for me to lie on my back.  It’s sweet ‘n all, but sweet doesn’t trump painful when you’ve got an elbow in your already aching back.

I could’ve picked up the cat and moved her, sure, but you try having that bright idea when you’re still basically asleep! She wasn’t responding to pushing at all so I just kept giving up. I couldn’t stop having crazy ass dreams about planets and galaxies–the tv was on *sigh* Ryan had the remote on his side and I couldn’t find it buried anywhere.

Hiho Hiho….shorter shift today, but 8-3 on a Sunday isn’t exactly a picnic. I promise.

…and counting. *sigh* This Page Rank Export List History reports the longest wait between PR updates has been 122 days. We’re at 144 days now. It’s generally every 3 months. WTH is going on?

This blog has no PR because I bought my domain shortly after the last update. I’ve been anxiously patiently waiting for the next update, but now I’m starting to get really frustrated!

I’ve been working really hard to achieve a respectable PR. I’m really happy with my Alexa Score! I’ve always been into blogging, but I’ve developed into what I call a semi-pro blogger. At this point, it’s become important to me to have decent rankings. I’m not expecting anything miraculous, I know I’ve got a pretty basic blog, but I’ve worked for what I’ve got, and I’m feeling cheated *pout*

The longer they wait, the more I start buying into all the theories that Google is doing away with PR. I’d be pretty pissed if I had to start from scratch on some different aspect to get a decent ranking. And I’d really like to know what kind of ranking my work has earned me!

I just wanna know, dammit!

I’d be lying if my desires had nothing to do with making money. In the PPP world, my old LJ somehow has a PR 3. So of course, I see opps available for PR 3s. Any idea how annoying that is? I just want a PR3….or a way to delete that damn blog from the PPP system…someone end the frustrations, please!

It just finished storming. It’s thundering to suggest it’ll soon be storming again. So tell me why…why are those idiots outside blowing off our sidewalks? It’s wet! It ain’t movin’ darlin’! Furthermore, as soon as the wind sweeps back in, there will be more!

Let’s not forget the fact that it’s ridiculously loud, and not helping my headache….And since it’s wet and nothing is actually blowing away, they’re taking longer than usual. Please just stop.

I skipped classes today. My head was pounding when I woke up and I was exhausted. I had no sleep last night. Work called me at 8am to tell me they added some hours on to my schedule….two weeks from now. Thanks for the update. Next time can I just get the note left for me like everyone else?

I feel guilty for missing class. I probably shouldn’t, but I do. I wish I could skip work, but money is needed.

I’m in a downswing. Unfortunately, I’ve got all the makings for happy days, but my job is awful and I’ve had no hours so I’m not even living paycheck to paycheck right now. Before the check arrives, it’s spent and I’m looking for more money to cover the rest of my needs. It’s killing my motivation.

It’d also be great if people around me could stop dying. I’d appreciate that.

This depression brought to you, most likely, by pms. I have no money for Pamprin to make me happy lol.

Not what you think, really. I have a mini gripe and a normal gripe. First, the mini gripe!

When you write out a check, why do you write “dollars” on the line?

 See? It already says dollars on there. It’s not something that bothers me, really. It’s just one of those tiny pet peeves, and something I’ve always been curious about. I only really care when it comes down to writing checks that are in the thousands and someone is freaking out trying to squeeze it all in on the line! “But Jade!! I’ve got to write my change in there too!” Umm….so you know why you write $.34 as 34/100? That means 34 hundredths of a dollar. So if your amount is $175.34, you write, “One hundred seventy-five & 34/100,” the”dollars” is already there.

This is the one that really gets me though. Your debit card can be used as a credit card. Take a look at your card. See that little logo in the bottom corner? It usually says Visa or MasterCard. That means it’s backed by one of those companies. It can be used as credit!

I run into this problem WAY too often with people whose cards are old, and thus our system can’t read it properly. If I have to type in your number, it’ll be processed as credit. What does that mean? Not a damn thing except that, like a credit card, it’ll take a day or two before that charge will show up.

I’m fully aware that most debit cards provided by credit unions can’t be used as credit; that’s not really what I’m referring to here. I’m talking about the people that want to argue with me that this BOA debit card can’t be used as credit. Guess what? You know all those fast food restaurants and gas pumps where you’re not typing in your pin number? Those places are processing it as credit. Is that enough to convince you?

And for the record, I always ask if it’s okay to run a card as credit because I’m aware some companies charge you for using it as credit.

As a whole, I hope to see the day when people know how to use debit cards, period. At least once a day I get someone who’ll swipe their card, type in their pin number, and then strike credit and sign for it. You’re not inputting your pin number, I hope you know. If you put in your pin number, you hit enter and that’s done. You don’t need a pin number to use it as credit. *head desk*

Okay, I’ll zip it now.

AHHH! I just came back from the bookstore….*ahem* <  breakdown > I only bought 3 books. I bought my Astronomy book, my Spanish book, and my Typing book…..$368 for 3 books. $368 for 3 books, that by the prices listed, should’ve been $270……can someone please tell me how it’s okay to list a book price, and then charge MORE just because you put up a sign that says, “Prices subject to change.” How? I just don’t understand how that should even be LEGAL. Does that mean we can advertise sales, and post signs that say, “Prices subject to change” and then not give people sale prices? I honestly don’t understand…it’s not as though the books aren’t ridiculously expensive to begin with…and I’m not even complaining about that, but Jesus, can I please at least get them for the price listed?! I only had $330 to spend. I had to pull the other $30 out of nowhere…and wouldn’t you know it; I still have more books to buy. I need my workbooks for Biology and Spanish, and my Biology book!! =( That’s at least another $250 right there….GAH!

Excuse me, I need to go sell some organs.

I totally called it. I said that having my schedule set up easily and satisfactorily meant a disaster ahead.

I hate when things like this coincide with the monthly emotional week.

So, I get a letter from Financial Aid that some additional paperwork is needed to verify and process everything. I went in today and all was well, but due to my stepfather’s back social security that he was paid this year, my application for financial aid has to be sent off for correction. I’m eligible for PELL (thank God) but the fee payment deadline is tomorrow, and the earliest my correction will be made is Friday. *sigh*

That’s where it all gets sticky. If I don’t have my fees covered by tomorrow, my classes will be dropped. I can go through registration again, but there’s pretty much a negative chance of me getting these classes back.

I can apply for a short-term loan through the Bursary to cover my tuition, and pay that back either when my Financial Aid comes in, or through 3 payments this semester. I’ll find out for certain tomorrow morning whether or not I qualify to do that, but I’m pretty positive that I don’t.

Even if I do, that still leaves the question of how much financial aid I’ll actually get, and whether or not it’ll cover my tuition. I have an idea of the most I can get this semester, and it could possibly cover my tuition, but it leaves me with nothing for books.

So what it boils down to, most likely, is yet another semester of me getting screwed over and not being able to have a full time schedule, putting me even further behind on graduation. I’ve got a lot to think about in what I’m gonna do about it all, and if need be, what classes in my current schedule can I settle without this semester and I need to look at my course list as well and come up with some backups in case everything gets filled up again in late registration.

I really hate that I’ve yet to have an overall smooth registration. Not once has it all worked out properly.

And I was so excited about my schedule this semester too. =(

Anyone got $1900 you can spare for 2-6 months? Lol…Publishers Clearing House, I’m waiting on you, dammit!

I need to go think. Maybe pout a little, and have some chocolate and caffeine….and Pamprin.

It’s almost 4am. We went to the dollar movies early tonight to watch Fantastic 4…it was pretty lame. I wasn’t expecting much, but I was expecting it to be a little more exciting with the Silver Surfer, but whatever…

Popcorn and Sugar Babies were yummy. I honestly didn’t eat that much, but now I’m sitting here, waiting for the Dramamine to kick in. My face is burning (no fever, just that internal sick-warmth) and I’m trying very hard to concentrate on not vomiting. I know I blog way too much about being sickly, but hey, it’s my blog, if I want to whine, I’m pretty sure I’m paying to do so ;) Besides, what else am I supposed to do at 4 am while I’m waiting for the pukey feeling to pass?

Logically I’d say I just ate too much junk, or it could easily be that I didn’t cook my chicken quite well enough, but something tells me it was the popcorn butter…either way, bleh =(

All I have here is Dramamine and Pepto. Catie gave me some Phenigren, and I’d love to take that, but I’m not positive which pill it is. Can’t remember. Last time I took Pepto, it pushed me over the edge rather than preventing the upchuck factor, so now I pretty much don’t take Pepto. So Dramamine it is. It needs to kick in soon. I’m le tired.

What do you guys do when you have an overly upset tummy? What meds do you take? What do you do to keep your mind off it till it passes?