Sweet Catastrophe

I say the crud because I’m somewhere between a bad cold and the flu. Sore throat, watery eyes, nose alternating between stuffy and runny, headache– and of course those are all cold, but I’ve got some major body aching going on which is usually an indicator that your cold is really the flu, but I have no fever. I’ve been getting chills and feeling feverish, but never actually have a fever. *shrug*

But that just rounds out my crappy week. We had a really fun day planned but I don’t at all feel up to it. So Ryan said he’d go get something yummy to cook for us, but it’s not like I’d taste it… Who needs glucomannan when you can’t seem to enjoy food anyway?

So for now I’m just bundled up with my tissues.

I have GOT to get back to taking my vitamins regularly! If I were pregnant, I’d be screwed ’cause I’d never remember to take prenatal vitamins every day.

I don’t eat right, I know that, I’m a very picky eater on a budget, with no set schedule, generally very little time to put together a meal, and always cooking for only one or two people. Odds are just not in my favor here, guys.

I don’t have a lot of caffeine in my diet anymore. I drink maybe 4 sodas in a week and it’s usually Sprite, Sierra Mist, or root beer, so at least there’s that.

I’m exercising. Not as often as I should yet, but baby steps, dammit.

But I’ve got to get into the habit of taking vitamins regularly. I just feel so much better when I’m taking them like I’m supposed to. Idk what I’m going to have to do to remind myself. I put them at the computer so I’d see them all the time but somehow that didn’t work. Maybe I’ll put them in my locker at work. It’s worth a shot…

So I finally found a deodorant that I love. It’s Suave 24-hour Protection in Sweet Pea & Violet. It works great and I adore the scent.

But I think I’m allergic to it =( Of course, it’s most likely the scent, but I really love the scent. I’m not really sure though. My underarms will just randomly start itching, but once they do, it’s an incessant itch.

I just bought this stuff in a double pack so I’d hate to have wasted the money so I’m waiting to be sure. It’s not daily, and it doesn’t seem to happen under the same conditions every time. I’m moisturizing nightly as well to see if it has anything to do with dry skin.

Any other ideas?

So William went to the beach last Friday and spent the whole day there when the weather was not beach-appropriate. The trip itself was an asshole thing to do (long story, just trust me) so when he woke up sick on Saturday, we all told him it was Karma.

Now Katie and I are also sick. Ugh! Neither of us have it as bad as he does/did, but I’ve got it bad enough that I knew I couldn’t work today. For once I hated to call out because I was already wide awake and I love my 10-5 shifts. And I had lunch plans today.

I haven’t previously followed any leads for insurance so I’m still strictly out-of-pocket so I can’t really go get any antibiotics, but I’m making do with otc stuff and it’s helping.

I guess it gives me an excuse to lie around all day and read. I’m seriously getting my money’s worth out of this Kindle.

When the Wii Fits came out I just avoided them. I get easily drawn into new technology and I knew I wouldn’t be able to get one any time soon so I just didn’t pay attention to it.

Once some of the ‘new’ wore off a few months ago I started looking into it and all the basics of it and got interested. I kept it casual though.

But last month when I stumbled onto that contest to win one, it took hold! I’ve been keeping a steady eye on eBay trying to get a good deal but of course, as eBay goes, these buyers consistently pay MORE than what they’re even going for in the stores… I hate when people do that.

So I had some money coming and a bigger paycheck than usual coming so I let Ryan talk me into buying one.

After deliberating, I decided if I could find one available in town, I’d get it.

Thursday I went out to run errands, Wal Mart on my list of stops but of course they didn’t have one. Right before I made it out of the parking lot I remembered there’s a Game Stop next door so I called and they said they had them in stock.

$96.29 with tax. I’ve got $35 coming in a refund, $30 from my brother for Mom’s bday present and I saved $35 on Willow’s food by scoring a free case– that’s how I’m justifying it *sigh*

I played Thursday and Friday. It’ll have to be put away for the weekend ’cause we have so many people in town and I’m just not risking it getting broken, but so far I really like it!! I think if nothing else, my buyer’s guilt and my worries about it just becoming another wasted piece of exercise equipment may be enough to keep me going daily. I certainly hope so!

I want to get a little sidebar calendar here too just to mark whether or not I did my time for the day, just so there’s some accountability there!

…but we seriously need a humidifier. The air in this bedroom stays so dry through the winter and I always wake up with a sore throat. Right now it’s amplified because my sinuses are allllll sorts of jacked up and everything is drying out anyway so when I wake up it’s bad enough that I’m unable to talk for a while. So not cool. And on that same note, I just want to go on record saying I’m sick to death of sinus headaches. I think I’ve had more than my fair share these past few weeks thanks!

A humidifier would help with the throat thing though, right? Or am I inventing cures? Where do you even set up a humidifier? Does it need to be close to you? I mean, there’s a nice open spot under the tv stand but that’s on the other side of the room. Or should you just set it up in the middle of the room?

Ugh winter has barely started and I’m not doing this for the next three months so I guess I’d better go answer all these questions and get some prices.

I’m not at ALL making resolutions for next year. However, I do have goals in mind but I’m starting work on them now.

I’ve already lost a few pounds just from cutting sodas out of my diet (it’s amazing what you can go without when you go broke) and my next goal is to start working out when I wake up. If I can’t sleep past 9am anyway, I might as well be taking advantage of that. I’m giving myself another week for my body to get used to getting straight out of bed at 9 and then I’ll decide what I’m going to be doing every morning after Willow’s shots.

The amazing Los Angelista is giving a chance to win what I think would be the perfect morning workout for me! A Wii Fit! I just know a Wii Fit would be the perfect way for me to workout! If nothing else, I’ll be stuck on it until I set records on everything available and by then I’ll be well into a routine of working out in the mornings!

I’m so terribly interested in working through all the categories: Yoga, Aerobics, Strength Training, and Balance– most of all I really want to try out the Yoga!

So here’s hoping some of that old luck pops back up for me!!

I’ve decided my death will be caused by malnourishment. I can’t tell you when was the last time I had meat that wasn’t meant for a sandwich, topping a pizza, or tiny chunks of chicken in a quick meal…..

Unfortunately I just spent the only bit of money I can spare on food for the next two weeks and I didn’t spend it wisely. *big disappointed sigh* Next paycheck I’m vowing to buy chicken breasts and fish fillets. I also really, really, really need to spring for a good vitamin, or orovo supplement or something. A daily pill, I can handle, but I know it’s really gonna take some willpower to change my diet. I’m just too lazy at home. I need a good, fairly quick way to cook meat without having to thaw it. That would be a huge step in the right direction.

I broke down and bought stuff to make rice krispie treats. Not at all a step in the right direction, but I’ve been wanting them for two weeks now. Now I’ve just gotta wait until Monday to make and eat them. All. By myself. Because fat kids love cake, and almost fat kids love rice krispie treats. I’m pretty sure I’m starting to ramble.

I’m starting to think I really need to get another health insurance quote. I feel like going to the school about my anxiety will end up doing more harm than good. They just aren’t terribly helpful there.

I’ve been checking out things on my own and some other issues I’ve been having tie in pretty neatly with my anxiety. It could all stem just from the anxiety, it could be due to my current birth control pills, or it could be that I’m hypoglycemic–which, based on my diet is a possibility.

I’m anxious more often than not, I’m always thirsty for water even moments after taking a swig, about twice a week (at least) I’ll get really weak AFTER eating and my circulation appears to be crap right now.

I know I have a tendency to be a bit hypochondriatic (yeah that’s not even a word, whatever) so when looking at all this stuff, I only really paid attention to symptoms I had previously noted to talk to the doctor about.

I had never even considered it being my pills. I was actually looking up coupons for them since they’re so expensive when I ran into forums where people were discussing their experiences with different pills and was just really surprised to see all the same problems I was having being associated with my pills. I never really realized just how much affect the change in hormones could have. I have no choice but to see a doctor this month for my pap, so when I go in I’m changing pills (again *cries). For one, these are too expensive. I can’t afford $60 a month. Also, after all this time, they’re just making everything more erratic. Maybe they’re also to blame for my other problems. I’m not counting on that though and I’m keeping a list of things to talk about when I’m there. I want them to go ahead and check for diabetes and hypoglycemia since I always get asked about those when I talk about problems I’m having. I’ve been checked more than once for diabetes and there’s no history of it in my family, but it doesn’t hurt to be sure.

I’m undecided yet whether or not I want to go ahead and ask for anxiety medication, or if I want to wait a month or so off this pill to see if that helps.

I just want to feel ‘right’ again.

My appetite is completely off lately! Not every day, but most days I’m eating very little throughout the day, but then after midnight I’m suddenly starving. It’s like something flipped and my eating schedule is backwards, sort of like people getting their days and nights backwards when it comes to sleeping– seems my appetite has done that.

I’m not really complaining, I mean I’m eating less, which is something I wanted to do anyway.

I had started taking a supplement, ya know, and I really liked it, but around that time my anxiety started getting worse so to be on the safe side, I put the pills on hold to be sure they weren’t contributing. I’m now positive they had nothing to do with it as I’m still having the same issues with the anxiety, but I still haven’t started back on them. I’m really sure they’re the best diet pill for me, I’ve just got sort of a mental block about it right now since I’ve always had such a negative experience with supplements. Even though I know they weren’t affecting me in that way, I’m just skiddish about doing anything that could even have the slightest effect on my anxiety, ya know?

Anyway, maybe just having my appetite so backwards right now will continue to solidify the diet changes I was working on– ya know, eating for sustenance, not just as something to do.