so. i went to the gyno this morning and she found a lump. now, the okay ones are moveable and usually painful to the touch. cancerous ones are the opposite. mine moves, but it doesn’t hurt any. she said she wasn’t too worried, but she’s sending me to a specialist anyway. i have an ultrasound next tuesday and then the following monday is when i’ll actually meet with a dr. and hopefully find something out.
so i call my mom because she said i’d want to have my mom with me because even if everything is okay i’ll be so freaked that i won’t remember anything the dr tells me. i found out from her that fibrocystic breast disease runs in our family, and in our family, it’s never been resolved with anything less than surgery.
breast cancer is also present on her side. not widely, but it’s there.
so my appointment ran long because of all this so i was late for work and i’ve been there all day so i’ve really just now had the chance to let it sink in and i’m pretty much terrified. i’ll be honest, i’m not really expecting breast cancer. but then a part of me knows i really can’t rule that out because anything major i’ve ever had hasn’t really followed the ‘normal’ symptoms. really, i’m just terrified of finding out i’ll have to have surgery. i mean my god, i just had my first i.v. i really wasn’t looking to immediately follow-up with my first major surgery.
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