Sweet Catastrophe

Met with the lawyer yesterday morning and well, I don’t even feel like I’m back at square one, I feel like I’ve regressed beyond that….maybe square negative 2.

Basically, unless something is seriously wrong with me, I’m probably still looking at $1500. And now less because 1/3 will go to the lawyer, but without him, I don’t even have a chance of getting my knee taken care of without insurance. As is, there’s only a chance that we can set up an appointment and MRI on a lien and just have it paid after the settlement.

It’s like hey, exactly what you were scared of happening, did! Hooray for the predictable.

I hate it. I sort of understand why these things end up being based pretty much on injuries alone, but I mean really? Of no fault of my own, and directly the fault of someone else, I’ve spent all this time either relying on others for a way to get around or driving a car that makes me cringe at least once every time I get in it. I’ve missed more than a handful of events that I wouldn’t have normally thought twice about going to because I have no reliable way out of town. I’ve wanted to visit Kristi, but can’t because I can’t trust that car. I’ve only been able to talk myself into going to Douglas because I know if I break down I’m just close enough that someone can come get me. Hell, I have to talk myself into going anywhere that isn’t necessary because I hate being in that car….

I’m honestly just so frustrated.